The Saga of the Continuous Headache

I can't believe that I have hit 16 weeks already. I suppose I say that each week, but the time is really going so fast. Before I know it I'm going to be holding a baby wondering where the last nine months went.

Anyway I feel like I have a confession to make. Yesterday I caved and took some pain killers. I feel really awful about it as I really didn't want Ernie to have any drugs. I felt really strongly about it and still do. I've basically had a continuous headache for the last six weeks with only a day or so being pain free days. That whole time I just put up with it and refused to take anything for the pain. Yesterday morning though I woke up with what was essentially a migraine. I put up with the pain for most of the day and it wasn't until about 7pm or so that the pain became too much for me and I couldn't stop crying. After some discussion and consultation with a medication guide, Jochen convinced me that I should take some pain killers to give myself a break from the pain and that being so much in pain couldn't be good for the baby. So I took two tablets and felt very, very guilty. The pain eased and I was able to get a pretty good nights sleep. Today I've had a very slight headache but it was so much better than yesterday and luckily I haven't had to take anymore painkillers.

I feel guilty that I wasn't able to deal with the pain without having to resort to the easy solution of painkillers and guilty that Ernie also had painkillers the he didn't need. However, it is done now and I just have to hope that I haven't done any damage to Ernie in a permanent way and that I don't have to take any more painkillers during the rest of my pregnancy. We will just have to wait and see.